I can't comment on a 13 yr old other than i was really picked on in school and i never thought "oh ya - lets end it now!". Everyone is different tho so its hard to say what any one person should think.
Into the future i can say i finally have some insight into depression - i didn't know what it was... and am a firm believer that one CAN'T know what it is till they been there - and I pray that none of you every get there.
For me the defining moment I was sitting in bed w/ a drink and a smoke and a cocked and locked HK USP Compact. Debating on what it would mean, was there a future to care about, and if anything mattered at all. That is when the gf's 14 yr old walked into the house. He shouldn't have been there, he was meant to be at his Grandparents house. I decocked the gun and hid it under the blankets, got him to bed... retrieved the gun and walked to put it away. On the way there was one of those really huge mirrors in the bathroom - pointed the gun at my reflection and started to pull the trigger. I didn't mean for it to go off.. but of course it did. And there I stood looking at a neat (if cracked) hole in my own head...
Boomfuzzled and feeling REALLY odd at that time my body moved into reaction mode... ANYONE in the house would have heard the gun fire so i stashed the gun in the closet and calmed the child down and got him back into bed, went back and "safed" the gun. Next day bright and early i got the glass people out to replace the mirror... but they wouldn't be out till the next day. That is when i got the call that my gf was checking herself out of the Mental hospital. And here is her house w/ a gun shot hole through the mirror wall and wall and imbedded bits of Hydrashok in the cabniets beyond.
Yes - suicide is the ultimate in selfishness - because your actions (if you don't believe in life after death) have no consequences to YOU, and in that state of mind - you don't give a rats behind about anyone else. You can't ever know it unless you have been there, and once again I pray none of you ever have to be there.
I made a pact w/ myself since then, those are generally the strongest kind, I will never be in that place again - i don't care if i have to wipe out all of castle wolfenstien, or blow away fourty milk jugs, or run 50 miles or WHATEVER it takes to get my mind off what ever it is that threatens, its a battle in my head that i can't win w/ pills or booze or for that matter - a firearm.
Do i have sympathy for the kid - ya.... a lot about how you make it out of school has to do w/ yer wireing and any adjustments your parents have made.
Do i blame schools or call them overpaid
what: ) - na... they do what they can w/ what they have. Don't believe me go try to be a teacher instead of giving hypothetical theory's about what they are capable of.
My cousin killed himself when i was 12... i cried for 2 days - they found notes and junk - nothing that explained anything - like one poster said - all it brings is questions - no answers.
At any rate - i prattle a lil too much for my 2nd post =)
J/Tharg!