Eric,
I think bikerdoc nailed it (and others have said basically the same thing.) PTSD is debilitating. It lessens with time. Take your time on any decisions and actions. Regardless of what you decide, be easy on yourself. The incident is so fresh that what you may have to do now won't we what you would once the trauma subsides.
I've never been shot but I have experienced PTSD. (My incident was a 70 mph high side in rush hour interstate traffic. Those are usually fatal. The first time I tried to get back on that interstate I couldn't do it. I was the passenger and the driver had to pull over and stop while I regained my composure.) The point here is the trauma is so great it is debilitating. It was months before I could get drive on that stretch of road (and I still haven't ridden down it and doubt I ever will.) Be easy on yourself. The trauma is most likely controlling you now. That's not a bad thing. It's a self-protective thing.
Take your time. You've survived and time is what you do have. You may find you want to shoot sometime in the future. (I still ride. I just can't do that one stretch of road.) Ease into whatever you do. Take your time. Your style will probably be different from here on. As long as it safe, that's not a bad thing. It's just the way it is.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. (Please forgive me if I am offending anybody with that. Comfort, not offense, is my intent.)
I think bikerdoc nailed it (and others have said basically the same thing.) PTSD is debilitating. It lessens with time. Take your time on any decisions and actions. Regardless of what you decide, be easy on yourself. The incident is so fresh that what you may have to do now won't we what you would once the trauma subsides.
I've never been shot but I have experienced PTSD. (My incident was a 70 mph high side in rush hour interstate traffic. Those are usually fatal. The first time I tried to get back on that interstate I couldn't do it. I was the passenger and the driver had to pull over and stop while I regained my composure.) The point here is the trauma is so great it is debilitating. It was months before I could get drive on that stretch of road (and I still haven't ridden down it and doubt I ever will.) Be easy on yourself. The trauma is most likely controlling you now. That's not a bad thing. It's a self-protective thing.
Take your time. You've survived and time is what you do have. You may find you want to shoot sometime in the future. (I still ride. I just can't do that one stretch of road.) Ease into whatever you do. Take your time. Your style will probably be different from here on. As long as it safe, that's not a bad thing. It's just the way it is.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. (Please forgive me if I am offending anybody with that. Comfort, not offense, is my intent.)