I have lots of better memories, but this one's the most vivid.
No one saw it happen, and I've never told anyone about it until this post. I'm ashamed to admit it now, even though this occurred almost 35 years ago.
I was 12 years old on my first deer hunt, sitting in a tree stand at the edge of a field on our property. I'd been shooting and hunting small game since I was 6, had tagged along with my Dad and older brother on previous deer hunts, and had shot a number of groundhogs with my new Model 94 Winchester earlier that year. The safety rules had been drilled into my head, and I was very familiar with my weapon.
But I was 12 years old.
It was late morning on opening day, I'd been in the tree stand with my Dad since before daylight, and we hadn't seen a deer all day. Needless to say, all the excitement of my first opening morning had turned to incredible boredom. My Dad left the stand to walk a loop through the woods trying to kick something up for me. I was playing around with my Model 94, aiming at trees or rocks at various distances and pretending that they were monster whitetails. I caught glimpses of another hunter's orange vest about 200 yards away from me, as he made his way through the trees toward the far end of the field.
In spite of everything I'd been taught and everything I'd practiced for 6 years, I aimed my gun at the orange spot moving through the trees. I imagined trying to shoot a running deer at that distance with my open sights. I knew I was doing something unsafe, and the guilt made me stop after a couple of seconds.
As I took the gun from my shoulder, I was horrified to see that the hammer was fully cocked. I don't recall pulling it back, but I must have done it when I was pretend-shooting one of those rocks. The only safety on that gun was a half-cocked hammer. As I lowered the hammer back to safe, a wave of stomach-churning adrenalin came over me as I realized just how stupid I'd been and how close I was to killing someone by accident. I was still shaking a few minutes later when that someone stepped out of the trees and into the field. It was my brother.