Barbara, pax , others great posts!
Different slant if you will.
One cannot change people, places and things; the only thing a person can do is change themselves.
Yep, straight from the AA Big Book.
[hey pax got to cite some Spirtual stuff *wink*]
Me, I fired all my family except for mom. I seem to be the only sib, that takes an interest in this. Then I was told by sibs "the eldest
has to and not the others job" .
Mom, is 78, and while she is smart, raised a country gal and all...she does not "have it" or "get it" as she once did.
There are plenty of books on raising kids - none I know of on how to "raise a parent".
It is tiring, frustrating, and drives me nuts at times dealing with mom.
I took my own advice, face to face with calm in voice -
"Mom, all I can do is change me and how I deal with you and your safety. I have already accepted a lot of things about life, and this upset some of the family when serious things happened and I was accused of being cold hearted.
NO. I honestly did the right thing in regard to personal safety with these family members,and they made choices and suffered consequences.
Mom, I have accepted the fact you will be a victim. It may be something minor, serious or even death, no matter I have accepted this and must continue to take care of me, and my personal safety and my serenity".
Well folks, not exactly what a mom wants to hear from eldest kid, still it needed to be said.
If I do not take care of me - then I cannot be there for mom if she need me.
It is well known I do not do stress, and protect my serenity.
I only have so much of "me" and I will expend all my energies and reserve 24/7.
Folks that know me "joke" how I will get into a fistfight to avoid getting into / allowing stress in my life.
I am fortunate, when matters go south and others are going crazy - I gear down and keep cool and get things done.
Selfish me, protects me by not allowing stress in my life.
I need these reserves when serious matters, emergencies come up. When I expend these reserves - back away and leave me alone, I will re-charge my batteries.
Selfish? Yep, one has to be selfish in personal responsibility. I choose to be selfish in taking care of me, my personal safety and serenity.
I am not going to a victim myself because I worried, fretted, got stressed out and used up all my reserves trying to change people, places and things I cannot.
Mom...she actually turned off the TV and thought about all this. She tossed out the "Church card".
No, I do not attend, my personal reasons, still respect the fact that mom has her Church bit.
"Mom, you can be standing on a RR track with a train coming down the track, and praying as hard as you can.
Simple fact is, one is supposed to take an action. Praying is fine, one has to take action, or so I recall as a pup when I did attend.
Now the deal is, you may take an action and lose a foot, you may still get run over, when it is your time to get hurt, die, - you get hurt or die and no amount of praying is going to change that"
Then I left , right as I did and she started to say something - I cut her off.
Unwritten rule with me, and goes way back to when I was a pup. Do not tell me to be careful, do not wish me luck, do not say you are concerned , will be worried...
Has to do with how raised, environment, industry and all. "WE" just firm handshake, hug, nod of head , eye-to-eye and no words spoken.
Mom is "mom" and she being her has tried to change me.
See a part of my life has always been segmented and private, not even family and friends know, not even closest friends. Security reasons , and I take this serious, my responsibility you see.
Folks "in the close circle" that do know, know to never bring it up, if they call and leave a message over at mom's for me, all is heard is "<first name> called to say hi, will catch you later".
Now a few times in life, there has been a serious situation, some involved mom and these folks in this tight knit bunch were involved.
Mom mentioned on the next visit one situation and how handled, she recalled no mention of "be careful", "I am worried", "take care" - all she saw was eye contact and head nods.
"Mom, that is the way it is, accept it and go on, you cannot change me, people , places or things".
This is what got mom to quit to "worrying" about some matters and taking care of herself. This is what got her to make some efforts in taking personal responsibility for herself.
She knows I "fired" family and she knows she has come real darn close on being "fired" herself.
No, I am no angel, not a perfect son and any chance of me getting sainthood went out the window by the time I was 3.
Mom started using her cane "more" and said to me...
"Guess I better start using this thing huh? Because if I fall down and break my hip I am not going to get to come running to you for help".
We can talk, and the hard talk too, she just did a play on the parent telling the kid if they get run over playing in the street, don't come running to momma.
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I refused to walk out two ladies to vehicles, that were anti-gun. I actually told them to flip a coin as to which one would get raped first while the other dialed 911.
Cold?
I dunno, they made it okay and one ended up changing sides and getting CCW.
One lady in denial and at the time I was in the Main OR, I got permission to show her the young lady that had "submitted" and everything else "they" say to do.
She threw up, folks do that after seeing a body that has had organs donated.
[dead , and we did the organ harvest]
Same lady denied anything would ever happen to her. Then a best girl friend was attacked. Still she denied. She hit her "bottom" when she got cornered and literally ran for her life.
"About this getting training and CCW stuff, I am ready " she said.
I sent her to a lady to get instructions.
She was upset I would not do this for her, I explained it was best for her to have a lady do this.
One set of "family" I fired got into a situation, serious and called me - I hung up on them.
They called again, and " maybe you should pray harder next time - tell you what, my niece, the one hurt ,is YOUR responsibility being a child and all. Now if something worse had happened / if it should happen in the future, I will be there like white on rice to be the responsible adult, and do not think I will not raise nine kinds of hell doing it".
A child is supposed to be parented and the parents be responsible for child's safety.
The .357 magnum I bought for this nieces dad? Locked away, ammunition separate and not fired in who knows when.
Life is just easier if one accepts folks are going to get raped, assaulted, injured , dead....